food food food

dinner one day, i eat like a panda, LOL

  

油焖笋 stir fried bamboo shoots

pork chop with mushroom sauce

breakfast, a piece of banana cake

veggi platter

Food

Crispy chicken thigh with beans and cherry tomatoes

1. dry chicken thigh with paper towel,
2. lightly bread and season,
3. bake 420F for about 20min, turn once

avocado and mixed green salad with black sesame dressing

breakfast: omelette with Greek yogurt and soy milk

Wild mushroom risotto with pork rib

seafood stir fried rice

baked beets

the best Good Friday

Try something you are afraid of.
Finally get to try skiing today, after being in Canada more than 10 years. It was fun, exciting, and not as hard as i expected at all. Friends are the best supporting, encouraging, peer pressuring, lol. The worst case is falling on the snow and it doesn't even hurt!
I was so worried about trying skiing and i kept thinking this is a difficult and dangerous activity that i should stay away from. I was just sacred and kept worrying but never tried. It's not as bad at all.
You are very brave today, good job! Very proud of you, Jamie!

Also managed to stop the lift once, my feet didnt touch ground and it just turned around, lol, i thought i was gonna take another round.

What makes a good engineer

I live in a world full of expectations and ppl not happy if i dont deliver something they wanted. Maybe they are jealous, maybe they want me to fill/support their eager, whatever it is, it's others dreams. I shall protect my own dream and stand my ground. When im over loaded and didn't even realize and see the big pictures, that's when the risk/danger come from.
Wear a mask may be the best way.

It really sucks when you thought everything is going well and all a sudden, nothing is right. It sucks. What is going on? I just dont have enough capacity yet, like doing exercise, stretch to a certain degree is fine. if stretching too much and over a tipping point, it hurts the next day. Keep learning, keep growing, it's okay, Jamie. Dont blame on yourself. Focus, one thing a time. Promise what you can deliver.

Feeling not secure, being judged, upset

Do I need Internet?

Do I need internet? Shaw cable prom price jumped up to more than double after half year promp price. I called them and try to negotiate the price and did not succeed. I was really disappointed and canceled their service right away. went with a different company instead, much cheaper price. Shaw treated me like i had no other options.

but, Do I need internet? that's the question I start thinking of. 20 years ago, i would spend time on my super slow computer and using internet through phone cable. my mom used to complaint all the time about how she cannot call in. nowadays, internet is so convenient that you can talk to pretty anyone on the world any time you want. Information is so accessible, world is so small yet big.

happy v day

前几天同事一直和我吐槽，主要还是relationship，看她那么down，我只好鼓励她。 我其实也是表面上开心，有时候自己会一个人不开心，但也不想表现给同事看，没有人会同情你，个人生活本来就是要自己安排好的。没有人可以帮你。

今天valentine's day，想起了以前自己经历过的一些事，似乎还是自卑的，更多的时候可以为了别人着想，而没有了自己的原则，到头来痛苦的还是自己。父母的婚姻不是完美的，让我对婚姻有恐惧。从好的一面来看，其实也是很好的借鉴，是否可以互相信任，是否可以在金钱上坦诚，是否有共同目标，是否可以一起成长。

在自我表达上也有待提高。say what you really mean.

overall，还是在慢慢的成长的，you are doing great, Jamie! keep growing! you will meet your Mr. Right one day! :) Happy V Day! I want to spend next year's V Day with someone!

keep learning

every time i talk to my supervisor about some technical problems, i notice there is a huge knowledge gap. it makes me think am i really getting what engineering is? or is this really for me? if i understand something, would it be like an instant thing? or would it actually takes time and efforts?