Do I need Internet?

Do I need internet? Shaw cable prom price jumped up to more than double after half year promp price. I called them and try to negotiate the price and did not succeed. I was really disappointed and canceled their service right away. went with a different company instead, much cheaper price. Shaw treated me like i had no other options.

but, Do I need internet? that's the question I start thinking of. 20 years ago, i would spend time on my super slow computer and using internet through phone cable. my mom used to complaint all the time about how she cannot call in. nowadays, internet is so convenient that you can talk to pretty anyone on the world any time you want. Information is so accessible, world is so small yet big.

happy v day

前几天同事一直和我吐槽，主要还是relationship，看她那么down，我只好鼓励她。 我其实也是表面上开心，有时候自己会一个人不开心，但也不想表现给同事看，没有人会同情你，个人生活本来就是要自己安排好的。没有人可以帮你。

今天valentine's day，想起了以前自己经历过的一些事，似乎还是自卑的，更多的时候可以为了别人着想，而没有了自己的原则，到头来痛苦的还是自己。父母的婚姻不是完美的，让我对婚姻有恐惧。从好的一面来看，其实也是很好的借鉴，是否可以互相信任，是否可以在金钱上坦诚，是否有共同目标，是否可以一起成长。

在自我表达上也有待提高。say what you really mean.

overall，还是在慢慢的成长的，you are doing great, Jamie! keep growing! you will meet your Mr. Right one day! :) Happy V Day! I want to spend next year's V Day with someone!

keep learning

every time i talk to my supervisor about some technical problems, i notice there is a huge knowledge gap. it makes me think am i really getting what engineering is? or is this really for me? if i understand something, would it be like an instant thing? or would it actually takes time and efforts?